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so apparently i rawk at mario kart. but ill give kenny some credit. bwa ha ha. this weekend was kaitlyns party. it was rawkolicious! it was almost as good as how my dance party eclectic will be. happy birthday darling. yesterday i hung out with STEPH, kenny, merri, kurt and hannah, went out to sushi with my dad, merri and stephanie spent the previous night after the party. kidnapping at 5 in the morning. twas fun, although it would have been cool to go ice blocking with the boys! but i got to know some people and we had fun with our makeovers, hershey game, and the park. mm grilled cheese. do you realize how many times exactly ive been to in n out in the past few days? it all started with me and bean's lovely date. then me and merri got stranded there on fri! until tessa came to the rescue... and today kenny, jenna, and kaitlyn all came over for mac and cheese and mario kart. and a little bit of wave race. i <3 nintendo 64!



whatever you do, maintain. we've got to maintain.

i had a good four day weekend. ill work backwards.

tonight i went out to sushi with my dad. cucumber rolls and avacado rolls... <3 <3 and i saw briannas baby today! absolutely beautiful, 5 days old. yes, and earlier i went to the movies with kenny, we saw the haunted mansion at the mann. before that jenna was with us, we did some browsing at the plaza. lets see, this morning i went to church as well.

last night i spent the night at kenny and blythes after going to riverside. we went to their family friend's party, which consisted of bowling and such. and before that i spent the night out there too. we watched tommy boy and cooked eggplant parmesean, and the cat almost murdered blythe in the middle of the night. twas fun spending the weekend there!

during the day on fri not too much. i stayed home, except for cashing in my coins at coinstar. 8 buckeroos, man! merri came over and we painted one of her shirts. lovely, i know.

on thursday, i believe kenny came over. we went to the park and fed the ducks. then at night we went to the regal and powerzone with merissa, jenna, and kurt.

and on wednesday night, merri held a movie night. best in show and harold and maude with kenny, blythe, steph, jenna, kurt, and of course merri. i think im gonna go watch weird science now.

missed you a ton this weekend kaitlyn!!!!

it amazes me how jenna traced back our lives from, oh say the past year or so, through my journal! silly girl, i love you! <3

then we shall never cease to write, right??

im so excited, kenny is coming to our school tomorrow!

ps. me and amira are making a journal soon. heads up!

i talk to myself like im someone else. im my own teacher and im disobeying. what do i have to do, what am i supposed to do, why do i pretend i know everything. i know nothing. because if i knew what i really was going on and on about, i wouldnt be this way. i would be someone else.

no one can reach me, no one can touch me, i recognize what i am and i can't fix myself. i wish i were a sketch. so i could erase just about everything. instead, people are portraits. were just white washed when there's a mistake. a clean new canvas with the layers of paint still breathing underneath.

it was beautiful.
my butt hurts so incredibly bad. i bet you have no idea. and it hurts me on the inside as well, realizing kenny is completely right on my lack of coordination. argh!...because i didnt do it snowboarding, no, or tubing, no, i simply slipped on ice. many asked if i was ice skating. no. i slipped walking! hey, those vans have no grip on the bottom, im telling you.
i went bungee jumping fowards and backwards. well, close enough to bungee jumping.
i stayed in our dorm with merissa amy and jenna. we had fun i think. and i loved the great talk that one night, although it was scary, it was good to talk about that stuff with some of my best friends.
spiritually, however, im not too sure. i had a hard time concentrating most of the time. the speaker could have been better, too. im dissappointed on this note. although most of it is my fault.

THE PLACE WAS COVERED WITH DEER HEADS, BEAR SKINS, AND STUFFED SNOW CHEETAHS. THE BUS DRIVER WORE A COWBOY HAT. THE SPEAKER TALKED OF HIS SEX LIFE AND MEAT. i felt as if i were in montana or something.

i think i went insane on the bus ride home. expecially because i let merri do my hair.

so thats my weekend and overall i had fun. and right now i have to do a set design for guys and dolls because mrs enright is a lazy bum.

zeppy is being so cute just sitting right on top of the computer!

so today is the day i finally realized its the new year. im excited for what it will bring. and i just want to reminice.(sp) so, if you would like to hear me...
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benderkiss: now shes gone forever
Outsmartedbyyou: yes, the doughnut shop, she'll never come back to you. you treated her too badly. this time shes left for good
benderkiss: no, i meant kaitlyn

today i have been working nonstop on this short story project i have been assigned, with a lovely theme of death, alienation, and loss. edgar allen poe has taught me much of the work of gothic literature. eh.

ok well scratch that it hasnt been nonstop. i stopped to eat here...and there...and there...and today i went out to breakfast at the firehouse cafe with kaitlyn, merissa, steph, and sarah. it was fun and most appetizing.

tonight i am hopefully going to amy's. that will be fun!

yesterday was spendid! i went to disneyland with kenny, blythe, and mike, and i had a great time riding the teacups and the foam snow and fireworks and such. weee!

so this week ive been at my dads house and just been a bum. i hope everyone will have a safe, but grand of course, new year. and then school will resume, and we will all be wretched once again! wont we now? ah well.

happy new year to YOU! i say, be merry. <3

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hi. and how is everyone? and their vacations?? good i hope. please tell.

so ive been gone in san francisco, for the most part i had fun. if your interested, look for pictures soon, within a couple days i mean. when i have time that is.

guess what! at our breakfast club christmas on fri it was great (except for steph leaving sick) so merissa got me perks, which i completed on my way to frisco. and burts bees chapstick, mmm mmm! i recieved the book i was talking about from jenna, "life after god" which i almost read on my way to frisco too but i got carsick. egh. kaitlyn bought me a sweater (which i happen to be wearing) and an awesome scarffff. stephanie got me the get up kids, which im listening to. ! and amy luv made me a scarf, which i LOVE!!!! it has leaves on it, its an autumn scarf. yeeee. thanks so much guys. and just having our own christmas thing rocked, except for, erm, yeah.

so shall i talk about my trip? if you want me to i will, but i think ill just post pics in a little while.

last night i went to see mona lisa smile, eh, i dont know but it didnt seem as great as you guys told me, heh. it wasnt too bad, though.

and today kenny should be coming soon and then later im going to jennas house for her lovely birthday.

happy birthday jenna! ~~~~~~~~~~ =] =] <3 <3

i hope everyone has an amazing holidays. have fun and be merry!

<3 bender

last night was fun, i wish i had brought the digital so i could show you guys the lights. anyway, it was very pretty, this place in santa clarita. and the houses even had fake snow. and this one house, (yay!) had flamingos and such instead of glowing moving freak reindeers. the lights were strung from tree to tree, across the street in such a manner that makes you feel trapped in some sort of christmas land, hrm, perhaps a snowglobe. anyway, that is my light adventure. i suppose i get too into it when my mother is fascinated by the littlest twinkle in a reindeer's eye.

today was jennas birthday party, and we went to tgif where i supposedly ate kaitlyns salad. hmph, (twasn't my fault! how was i supposed to know my salad was to come on another plate!) anyway, we had fun, i hope you did jenna! and then we went into a movie for a little while and busied ourselves with some other things.

finally finished with shopping and wrapping. yay. oh and tomorrow i dont have to go to school till 9. but i am off anywho. g'night. =]

so today theres a lot to be done. i have to get everyones christmas stuff together, wrapped, made, etc. i have to visit my dad, i have a character file on joe gargery to be done, and to top it all off, i smell. mwa ha ha.

anyways, this weekend i went to borders for quite some time, and found a book, "life after god" which i read a bit of and its really great. it contains short stories that talk about different themes and such, and its all written by the same guy, who writes beautifully. on saturday, i went to the mall for some hellish shopping =P and then i spent the night at stephs. so now its morning and i have much to get accomplished! errrr... help me dickens (please!)